Wrestling Within

It seems that all my thoughts come to me at the most sleep deprived times in my life. I keep wondering if there is something that is wrong with me or if I am just that worried about something that my body won't let it go;or if I am just plain psychotic!!!
 In my adventures this week I decided that I was going to do some forgiving. I have struggled to be the good person in a really bad situation, but this is a part of my life chapter that i just want it to be closed. Instead of getting upset, or even hurt, I decided to be the bigger man; as the good lord and mamma taught in sunday school . I wanted to communicate to this person that I was grateful to have them in my life, but that in order for me to move forward, I had to let go of the past. 
Before I approached the situation I thought long and hard about how i would be able to communicate everything that was plaguing my mind. Without notice I found myself turning in a spiritual reading store before heading to talk to this person. 
I kept a "Open mind" going into the reading, letting god know, "hey if you want to talk to me, here is your chance." 
I can't really go into all the details about what i heard, but I did walk out of there with a whole new perspective on what needed to be done. i no longer was wrestling within.